i just don't know

right now i have this mixed up jumble of emotions in me that i don't know what to do with. i still have homework to do as well, which doesn't help the situation. in the midst of trials i'm having trouble rejoicing because i'm seeing people i love get hurt. yet i know the Lord will use this for our good and His glory. my stomach is all in knots as i seek His face, desiring to please Him, yet not knowing the right way to do it. i can't clearly see what is right and what is wrong. i suppose much of life is like that. i guess i just haven't faced it head on like this.

what do you do when you don't know what to do but you have to do something? all i know to do is fall on my knees before the Lord and beg His guidance. Lord, let my thoughts and words and actions be fixed on honoring You. i wonder how He will work all this out. my anticipation causes me to long for heaven that much more. oh that Christ would return and rid His children of their sinful flesh! there have been few times in my life where i've really cried for the pain of someone else, this adds to the list. the Lord is sovereign. what a gracious, loving Lord He is!